My band is playing it’s first jazz festival. The band I put together. The one that I do my best to lead in a good way.
It’s been a year that’s very difficult to describe. I decided to book a show at the Garrick Hotel on March 5th. I didn’t have a band yet. I had been preparing for years to have my own group. I lived in an apartment where I was free to play at all hours of the night, and enough space to practice with a five piece group. I had recording equipment, live performance equipment, many grooves that I had been preparing for a very long time. The most important thing that I had been doing for the previous 2 years was rebuilding my embouchure (lip muscles) by practicing almost daily, This is something I hadn’t done in a very long time.
I wasn’t totally ready to play at a level I was happy with, but I decided that I don’t care anymore. I knew I’m not going to be great trumpet player, but I knew i could form and lead a great original band. If I was going to play music, I wanted it to be MY music. I wanted to choose who I played with. i wanted to honor my own musical ideas and hear them played by great musicians.
I don’t do things the easy way, and I have this all or nothing attitude that I know I needed to temper, because that attitude left me doing nothing musical for a very long time. Perfection just isn’t reality. If the goal is to play that perfect set, than I need to do everything that will lead me there. I’ll know when I’m in that moment and I know it will be truly blissful, among all that imperfection. Jazz music is all about searching for those moments.
You might even be there with me on June 26th. The musicians I’m playing with are better than I hoped for.
I hope it’s a beautiful evening and I can’t wait to see you.